Zuuhhhhhhhhh

I’m currently in the midst of my third mental breakdown of the week. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. It’s like a combination of work stress, PMS and OCD. And probably lack of sleep. I’m on the verge of tears, but nothing’s coming out, just fits of anger and self-inflicted physical…harm. To the point where I’m sorely tempted to bang my head on the wall because I feel like I need to experience serious physical pain to mask the irritation of this mental chaos. I don’t know what to do.

The other night I was barking at my family and it was freaking them out. Earlier this week I was just lying in my bed staring at the ceiling trying to empty my head. What the fuck is wrong with me…