Trying to get back into the swing of things

Have you ever been faced with such a huge, daunting list of things to do? And not just simple errands like “Drop book off at library,” or reminders like “Student loan payment due.” Sometimes I think I just love making lists. And they keep growing and growing, and I end up sitting on the floor of my room, staring at this computer screen wondering where the eff to start. “Organize closet” or “Set things aside for recycling” or “Clean out second shelf under stereo”? Doesn’t help that I literally don’t have time to do any of the stuff I have to do or want to do. “Finish watching BBC Pride and Prejudice” or “Watch brand new The King’s Speech DVD”? (I’m in a major Colin Firth mood right now, heh) “Clean loft” or “Shop for cheap desk”?

My desire for all things blogging appears to have waned in the past couple of months. I haven’t kept up with my reader, nor have I managed to write anything substantial in this WordPress box. I want to say that I blame it on my two time-sucking jobs—working 60 hours is exhausting. That, and I realize my online persona may very well have an effect on my real life persona someday, since reality and the Internet world appears to have finally meshed at last. So I gotta watch what I say…for now.

Have I mentioned my growing dislike for our society’s growing, disgusting dependence on technology? I had to upgrade my phone for the first time in years, and at the insistence of my mother I paid $100+ for a smartphone. I regret it. In fact, I was so angry at myself one day for getting the damn thing that I started tearing up at work because purchasing it was going against every principle I had about this stupid obsession with smartphones. I half want to chuck it in the trash and half don’t know what to do with it. I don’t use data. All I freaking do with my cell phones is call, text and occasionally take pictures.

OK, I’m getting angry thinking about it again. Should try and continue trying to be productive with my life…