This is getting really bad

I’ve come to the realization that I just can’t do this anymore. School. Work. Classes. I have absolutely no motivation to do any of it.

It scares and upsets me at the same time that I can’t seem to find the drive to make an effort this semester. I was so damn good last fall. I really was. I managed to raise my GPA, I loved every single one of my classes, and most importantly, I learned so much. But here we are now in week 6 (I think) of this semester, and I still have yet to dive right in and regain that mentality. It’s like my brain has shut off and ceased to function.

Case in point: I had a take-home exam to complete this weekend. It’s due in about 6.5 hours. I finished about 90% of it yesterday, meaning it really should have only taken me about half an hour to finish it today. But I literally just finished it about twenty minutes ago. It took me over 12 fucking hours to finish a short essay. It’s ridiculous. I’m so upset with myself, but I don’t know what to do about it. I have two papers due on Tuesday as well as work for the next three days, so I don’t know how I’m going to manage to get my ass up and be productive for once.

I honestly don’t think I can be in school right now. I have no motivation, no desire. I’m so distracted by my social life, but I’m not partying any more or any less (OK, that might be a lie). I just would much rather curl up on the couch reading a book right now than writing any bloody papers.

I should also probably get some sleep as well. Shit.